✹✺ coventree✻✮

As you can see, as common as it sounds, the sun is going down while office buildings that cause anxiety to humans act as its grave. It's just another Friday night.Of course, taking into consideration that Fridays don't matter to the universe.

Routine is no good for them (of course, taking into consideration that "bad" doesn't really mean anything). Work  does for them what we do for each other. We provide a feeling of apparent comfort.
we forcefeed habits
we disguise them as happy
we live It off thinking that this is no longer a way to mantain our conflicted bodies and  pretty minds in a safe and cozy realm, but as a part of the definition of ourselves. Of course every single decision you make and act you see and word you hear and obviously every person and job you get sunk in creates you, as we are layers of bacteria of thought, drunken off pride and "intelligence" and "ignorance".

so I'll ask you one more time
(because in my mind the times I did it so silently count as three times)
I'll ask you to understand that you'll never understant what I mean. I know you think we're doing it right, because it is what we're supposed to do after all, be there for each other if we fall, help each other reach our goals, and together pay our tolls but have you never thought of what you're doing to youself
           .and it's all my fault.?

I think I will stay quiet. I'm not denying I want to leave and I won't say I didn't love you with every piece of my crushing soul, but love will not sustain me or fix my abstinence syndrome from the wonderless months
 it's a moment not a life, it's a feeling not a right and when I'm reeling
               towards
                                            the
                                                                 door
not drunk off memories anymore
I'll be honest.
                          you don't have to need me, you did before



[inspired by Ghost by Halsey. damn i rly need to get back writing]