2015 Rewind

Como conclusión de este año, que ha sido una montaña rusa, voy a apuntar algunos de los momentos y logros más importantes:
·En enero, le di un abrazo a una de las personas que más me han inspirado en los últimos cinco años y...estuve en Madrid por primera vez, un reto y una aventura bastante única with my mom. Bastante guay.
·Ensayé con mi (maravillosa) banda Swan Song y aprendí muchísimo sobre el proceso, lo que ha sido una experiencia genial que nos llevó a nuestra primera actuación en mayo, que fue fácilmente uno (si no el mejor) día del año. <3.
·Estuve en verano en dos países, pasé tiempo con mi familia (guay).
·Aprendí un poco sobre política, de lo que me siento muy orgullosa.
·Algunos problemas personales se fueron disipando?? genial
·Me compré un ukelele y aprendí a tocarlo ajhsgjhjsddjj
·Empecé a salir de casa sin maquillaje por primera vez en dos años o así y me hace muy feliz.
·Conocí a un par de personas.
·Empecé a ser (ligeramente) social!!
·Aprendí más sobre mis relaciones con los demás y a analizar las situaciones y saber cuando debo actuar.
·En general aprender?


Qué espero de 2016?
·Aprender.
·Tal vez otro idioma?
·Ganar muchísima confianza :D
·Conocer genteee.
·Socializar más ajaj.
·Pasar más tiempo con mis amigos
·Mudarme?

Feliz 2016!

As you can see, as common as it sounds, the sun is going down while office buildings that cause anxiety to humans act as its grave. It's just another Friday night.Of course, taking into consideration that Fridays don't matter to the universe.

Routine is no good for them (of course, taking into consideration that "bad" doesn't really mean anything). Work  does for them what we do for each other. We provide a feeling of apparent comfort.
we forcefeed habits
we disguise them as happy
we live It off thinking that this is no longer a way to mantain our conflicted bodies and  pretty minds in a safe and cozy realm, but as a part of the definition of ourselves. Of course every single decision you make and act you see and word you hear and obviously every person and job you get sunk in creates you, as we are layers of bacteria of thought, drunken off pride and "intelligence" and "ignorance".

so I'll ask you one more time
(because in my mind the times I did it so silently count as three times)
I'll ask you to understand that you'll never understant what I mean. I know you think we're doing it right, because it is what we're supposed to do after all, be there for each other if we fall, help each other reach our goals, and together pay our tolls but have you never thought of what you're doing to youself
           .and it's all my fault.?

I think I will stay quiet. I'm not denying I want to leave and I won't say I didn't love you with every piece of my crushing soul, but love will not sustain me or fix my abstinence syndrome from the wonderless months
 it's a moment not a life, it's a feeling not a right and when I'm reeling
               towards
                                            the
                                                                 door
not drunk off memories anymore
I'll be honest.
                          you don't have to need me, you did before



[inspired by Ghost by Halsey. damn i rly need to get back writing]

22:58 pretentious thoughts on love

There will be someone at some point in your life that will ask you about it, because they either assume that the feeling is universal or think you have experienced it. If you have, you'll probably say something rational, a practical and easy way to tell if the comfort of someone's company can be fit inside that four letter word. Others, like me, who have presumably never felt anything similar will tell you a story or sing a song and hope that you understant it in the same way they do in their fantasies. If you were to ask me, I'd probably describe it with something pretentious that I have actually rehearsed a couple of times, because when you look in her eyes you just see the sky. Yes, that's a quote I stole from a song but it accurately describes what I think it to be. It's all about our perspective, right? I guess it's kind of like "qualia", where it could be a different experience for everyone but the limitations of our languages don't allow us to communicate in what way they are different. Love is weird.

23:42

Siempre me pongo a pensar que dentro de dos años yo seré la que escriba un discurso y la idea era "recaudar" consejos de la gente de mi curso y mi consejo sería algo como: sometimes life is going to be disappointing. and it's going to be sad. and it'll make you want to cry and it'll make you want to die. but at the end of the day it doesn't matter, if you can fall asleep tonight. after tonight comes tomorrow, and it's better in my mind. so finish this crying if you want, and be all sad but know that tomorrow exists for you. just don't give up Tonight.

Charlie

''You know . . . a lot of kids at school hate their parents. Some of them got hit. And some of them got caught in the middle of wrong lives. Some of them were trophies for their parents to show the neighbors like ribbons or gold stars. And some of them just wanted to drink in peace.''

Holden

"-Pues yo lo odio. Jo, cómo lo odio -dije-. Pero no es sólo el colegio. Es todo. Odio vivir en Nueva York y todo eso. Los taxis, y los autobuses de la Avenida Madison, con esos conductores que siempre te están gritando que te bajes por la puerta de atrás, y que me presenten a tíos pedantes que dicen que los Lunt actúan como los ángeles, y subir y bajar en ascensor cuando sólo quieres salir a la calle, y esos tíos que te arreglan todo el tiempo los pantalones en Brooks, y la gente que no para de decir..."

COSAS ~[^-^~]

Hola!! Hoy pensaba compartir algunos videos, canciones y libros que me han gustado últimamente ASÍ QUE-

 How To Get Away With Murder (Como defender a un asesino)
Acabo de terminar la primera temporada y SUFRO porque la serie es tan buena que no creo que pueda esperar hasta otoño para los nuevos episodios :o. HTGAWM trata sobre cinco estudiantes de derecho que se ven envueltos en un asesinato. A cada capítulo, se va viendo como llegan a esa situación mientras ayudan a su profesora Anabelle Keating a defender en juicios a los acusados. ES UNA SERIE MUY BUENa y la recomiendo muchíiisimo por su temática de misterio y el gancho que te hace nunca querer parar de verla ^^



 Imagine a world where being ''Gay'' was the norm and being ''Straight'' was the minority 
ESTE ES IMPORTANTE

 Fairly Local
twenty one pilots van a sacar un nuevo álbum y este es el primer single :0

 El Guardián Entre El Centeno -
Voy como por la mitad y es un libro tremendamente entretenido y profundo. Espero hacer una reseña cuando lo acabe porque me está gustando mucho :0